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Fun research

I've been reading primary sources about 19th century American needlework. This 1895 "The Decorator and Furnisher" has great examples of Victorian passive aggressive bitchiness. 1-"Cross stitch is easiest of all. It has been the favorite work of children and of the women of crude nations." Ha! But it's not ALL horrid:"Yet cross stitch has a certain beauty that is not to be despised." Hahaha.

Also, it's not enough to just say, "regarding the colors you should use for embroidery, stick to soft, muted colors" or anything like that. Nope! Gotta say, "The tint of the material ought to be unobtrusive. A large mass of bright blue, red or yellow is fit only for savages.". SAVAGES!!

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Goddamn, I sure fell off of this thing, didn't I?

Part of my problem is that (aside from being really busy) anything I want to say seems really dumb, boring, inconsequential or self-absorbed. I like reading OTHERS' posts that are just as trivial, though, so I'm not sure why that stops me.

And damn, LJ is so easy to get behind on now, so then I'll just avoid it for awhile because I'm SO behind, etc. Then I feel isolated and the cycle continues.

I know LJ seems to be slowly dying (for the non-Russian segments, anyway), especially in favor of Facebook. But dammit, short status updates don't fully replace rambling lj posts, people!
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JC, 5 days? Oh well. Days 9-13

Man, I thought it was 3 days. Apparently grad school sucks up a lot of your time. Who knew? :D

Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

Danielle at LTU. I have a feeling she didn't "drift", but she would never tell me what I did that made her upset. I mean, I literally have no clue what it is; it's not like we had some disagreement (or even that I said something that she looked upset at, but she didn't argue at the time) that I think is "stupid" or anything. The only thing I can think of is that perhaps I said something she was upset at enough to stop talking to me. But if that's it, she had a great poker face when I said it because I have no clue what it was. And if she would've just talked to me, I would've definitely listened and apologized if there was any misunderstanding or unintentionally hurtful words. I really miss her. :(

Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

I really can't think of anyone? So, uh, go me and my people I know!

Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

Either my smart-ass sense of humor or my knitting skills.

Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.

I never get complimented on having a middle finger tendon that cracks loudly. :'(

Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

What does "write a letter" mean? Anyway, quite honestly, while I love a lot of bands and dig music, I really think that I'm not into music as much as most people I know. I've never needed music to "get me through some tough ass days". So I guess my answer is "none".
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Days 7 & 8

Yes, I seem to have a pattern of just doing these every other day. Sue me. :P

Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.

What kind of cheesy ass question is that? Basically I'm shorting any of my loved ones with whomever I pick. So screw that. That someone is ME. I am living my life for ME. I obviously love Chris with all my heart, and love my family with all my heart (and I could go on), but in the end, you live your life for yourself.

Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.

I'd say most of my male classmates at St. Joan in 6th-8th grade. I really went from loving school to loathing it because I'd be constantly ripped on. Most of it was just verbal teasing but there were a couple of hits (stay classy, guys!). Apparently the fact I had D/F cups by age 12 was something I chose to do freely, so it was cool to tease me about them constantly.

So yes, they made my life a total hell until I went to high school. But my rack is awesome now, and they don't get to appreciate it. ;)
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A different meme

corporis_ossa tagged me, and I'm supposed to tag 8 people, but I don't usually do tagging. I DO, however, encourage people to post something. I know everyone loves Facebook, but it's nice to actually make/read posts that are more than tiny snippets.

Lots of pillows or just one?
I have just one, and it's a molded memory foam one with two different bump heights. I like it lots.

What kind of books do you read?
See, JUST when I started to get back into reading for fun again... I start grad school. :X So right now I'm reading books related to historic preservation. The books I took out for myself at the library remain in the bag (note to self: you should return those soon).

What are your neighbors like?
We just have one upstairs neighbor, since we live on the bottom flat. Overall, he's fine. He can be a bit of an airhead in some ways, but there haven't been any issues. And if we can figure out how to park 3 cars on the cement slab that used to hold a single garage and keep it working, that's pretty good!

What's the best lesson you've ever learned?
That success in life (love, career, etc.) is not inherently tied to the amount of effort or moral character of the person. Sure, working hard to achieve a goal is a good thing (and can increase the chances of success), but it doesn't guarantee you'll reach it. And if someone is having a really rough time in life, it does not automatically mean they are a bad person or did something to "deserve" it.

What's your least favorite chore?

Is there anything in your life you would take back if you could?
I seriously have to just keep in corporis_ossa's reply, because it is exactly what I thought before I even read her response: "Nope. Every mistake has shaped me for who I am. If I changed a past event I would be different from who I am today. I proudly wear my scars, both emotional and physical."

Do you prefer your junk food sweet, salty or savory?
Salty and savory are generally related, aren't they? Generally salty/savory, but when I want something sweet, I WANT IT REALLY REALLY REALLY BAD.

What websites do you always visit when you go online?
Livejournal, ravelry, the SDMB and usually Facebook. Oh, and gmail.

What was the last thing you bought?
Dried fruits and nuts from the bulk food store.

Do you get cravings? If so, what do you crave?
Duh, of course I do. But they're completely random and all over the map.

What do you do to change your mood?
I knit, play WoW, play solitaire on my phone (I'm obsessed with it lately), play with the doggie.

What was the last meal you ate?
Dinner; it was Moroccan-spiced spaghetti squash with chickpeas.

Do you want to learn another language?
I think anyone who knows me knows I'd say, "just 'another'?"

Your favorite childhood memory.
I don't know if it's my MOST favorite, since I'm terrible at coming up with "favorites". A nice one, though, was when I woke up late one night because I was sick and miserable; mom sat me in her lap and let me watch the movie she was watching (Jumping Jack Flash). I was pretty excited since it was a REAL, GROWN UP movie!

Are you a relationship person or a play-the-field kind of person?
I SUPPOSE I have to say I'm a relationship person, since I'm married and all.

What's something that you'd like to say to someone right now?
Okay, once again, I have to keep her answer in. :D "I'd like to tell one of my professors to stop sucking."

What are you looking forward to?
Finishing grad school with some really awesome knowledge, and hopefully opportunities to have a job I love.

Do you prefer boxers/briefs/tighty whities on a guy?

What is your favorite electronic accessory?
iPhone, hands down.
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Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.

Catching up again, yes yes.

I have to pick from ALL THE THINGS? If I had to pick just one to mention here, it's one thing in a few parts. First, it'd be that I really want to travel and see different cultures as they are and not how generic tourist attractions want to make them comfortable for you (or presented as "haw haw, look at this quaint/silly/ridiculous stuff these people have! Isn't that funny?").

Second, I want to truly gain as much understanding as I can of these cultures. If I have any (even subconscious) misconceptions, I'd like to fix those. I want to see all of the different aspects of different cultures that come together to make this crazy bunch of people (Humanity).

And third, I want to be able to take these experiences and understandings and enable others to experience travel in this way as well.
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Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.

I'm going to kind of cheat and do this a bit differently. It's something I technically have already forgiven.

Basically, I "forgive" how assholish a lot of my classmates were in grade school (teasing, bullying, etc.). Obviously I loathed it at the time, but I got through it and had a decent high school experience with people and have now grown up to be a competent adult (for the most part ;)).

This isn't to say that I appreciate what they did or think that it was right, but... kids are assholes. And evil. I'm lucky that I got through it without severe repercussions, definitely. But I did. And I figure that most of them have grown up to be mature, productive members of society. And if they haven't, well, it's not my concern!
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Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.

Wow, this is a hard and potentially awkward one! Especially for a public entry.

This could be taken several ways. Is it something specific you did that was wrong? Is it something you yourself think is bad, but others probably wouldn't think it's a big deal (or even bad at all)?

I suppose the thing that I should "forgive myself for", while simultaneously still doing it is holding myself up to impossibly high standards, then beating myself up (mentally) when I can't reach them. These standards are for no one else but myself; I wouldn't expect anyone else to meet them (or be disappointed in them when they don't).

It'd be one thing if I set intentionally difficult/impossible goals or standards just so I could stretch further than I thought I could. But I'm generally not satisfied with just doing that. So basically, I set myself up for failure because no one could reach these goals without going batshit insane.

Perhaps I'll have a locked entry later that goes into some specifics, but not in a public one!
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Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.

Yeah yeah, already a day behind. :P Two today!

The first thing that comes to mind is my intellectual curiosity. I want to LEARN ALL THE THINGS. There are so many areas that I find fascinating and even subjects I'm not personally interested in, I still will find interest in the abstract sense.

I'm not sure if it's "intellectual curiosity" or "love of learning". Perhaps it's both at the same time. The only thing I hate is realizing there is no way there's enough hours in one lifetime to LEARN ALL THE THINGS!